Before...

Betrayed, jealous, bitter
without rights
anger, disappointment, hurt
without reason
lonely, isolation, unworthiness
without justification
but my heart still cries at night

salty tears flow into a wound
torn open upon seeing you together
i seek anger as a refuge from
the piercing pain and try not to care

head and heart engage in a fierce battle over you
head wants to let go
heart wants to hold on for dear life
knowing if you go, I'll break

though apathy is my goal, bitterness is the result

Originally posted on 8.22.04