Soul What?!

Do you believe in soul mates? Do I? I'd like to, but what evidence is there that they actually exist? Is it in happily-ever-after, pure bliss, utter contentment? Who knows. What I do know...and what I do believe in....is soul....friends. Those individuals you were destined to meet for the mutual purpose of enriching each other's lives. That's not to say that you don't have your ups and downs, as any relationship does, but through it all, you KNOW, WITHOUT A DOUBT that they want you to be happy. I had such a friend...for a short time, comparitively speaking, and the relationship was riddled with complications from the start. But we clicked...in that strange way that true friends do and before long we knew each other as well, if not better than we knew ourselves. An unasked favor, a hand held, a simple written 'I love you' where the other would find it later...visits to the ill, late phone calls, pranks, and fun surprises were all met on this charming journey.
And then...as day changes to night...and fall to winter, so did we. The cool, lazy winding river that could have characterized our friendship became rushing rapids that we were soon lost in. Priorities changed, personalities altered, promises were left behind...and I lost a part of myself. I ache for days past when I could call my friend...or stop by, just for a hug...a smile...a shoulder to lean on. Tears make their way down my cheeks as I fondly remember the laughter and cringe at cold encounters...if only I could take some of it back...and leave the rest...or get some of it back...and in finding him...finding us...find myself...
Originally Posted on 1.13.2005 at 10:43 PM