that first step is a doozy....

I'm not a blogger. You may be thinking that's a bit ironic seeing as you're reading my blog right now, but I'm not. I have a difficult time writing about nothing. Unfortunately, I don't have a tough time reading about nothing as I'm perfectly content to do just that for hours (even days) on end....just last weekend I read nearly 1,000 pages....of nothingness. Back to the point at hand...although I struggle with writing it is something I find immensely satisfying so it is my hope that this little venture will spur more trips into writing....we'll see where I end up.

I have a friend, Julie, that blogs...but they're more than that; they're cries of passion on a page which is intimidating for me because she's passionate about so much: politics, coffee, the environment, civil rights, her family. Will writings about my mundane life measure up? Should they?

A few things on my mind now:

• I'm incredibly grateful for the autumn weather this weekend -- I find it easy to be productive while feeling relaxed knowing that fall is upon us
• The second anniversary of my best friend's death is next week and even still I find it difficult to fathom. He is on my mind daily, but I find it difficult to confide in friends and family because even though we've all experienced loss, I feel as though no one can relate to the physical pain I feel in his loss.
  
• As a teacher and coach I find it difficult to juggle my responsibilities while still doing justice to my students and players. I don't want to let any of my obligations slide: at home, on the court or in the classroom and it makes me wonder how I should/could go about doing more for me (going out more, etc) when I already feel overextended.
  
• I'm feeling appreciative for my friends, specifically two of my girlfriends, Liz and Libbi, who are constantly supportive, help me to laugh and push me to be a better person through their actions. I love them both.

Hmmm.....I feel as though I need to ration my thoughts so I'll save the rest for another day.....